Heavy sarcasm and social critique aside, I do intend to spend more time focusing on getting my life where I want it to be. I want to be in a spot where I am proud of where I am at the end of the year.
Of course, I have an ED-specific goal myself. In a nutshell, it's to be in control of myself. I don't want the out-of-control binging that sometimes leads to impulsive purging. I don't want to indulge in junk food or unhealthy stuff just because it is there, free, and convenient. I really want to emphasize eating healthy foods AND doing exercise.
Learning (and applying) techniques to relax myself would probably help. I'm so, so, so, SO, SO relieved I finally managed to meet the minimum requirement GPA for my scholarship. I feel like "yes, I can actually survive and do well here." It's such a confidence booster. I'm still anxious about my spring semester since I'm taking the infamous organic chemistry class AND a French class. AND a literature class. All three require a lot of attention and time, and I'm so worried I'm going to get depressed and stressed to the point that I ditch class and do nothing but lay in bed for a few weeks like last year.
It would be very tricky to balance going to classes, memorizing chemicals, memorizing French vocabulary, reading books, and writing essays WITH getting some exercise. I'm thinking I could do more of a cardio-based exercises on machines (since some exercise is better than none) and read or go over flash cards while exercising. I think it's a good multitasking plan.
I think locking myself in a library would also benefit me. I find it harder and harder to study on my dorm floor because the freshmen are so loud and annoying. There were way too many times I cried in bed because they disturbed my sleep. I am such a light sleeper with anxiety-induced insomnia. The echo-chamber in the hallway doesn't help my predicament either.
So yeah. I plan a healthier 1200 calories eaten in 5 sittings throughout the day with an emphasis on drinking water and avoiding unhealthy food. Within a year, even without exercise, I would reach my UGW. Sounds simple, but such a complex undertaking.
And I'm starting this literally on the New Year's. The last thing I ate was at 11:50pm, and I've not broken the promise yet lol.
