Sugar

I've made progress, faltered, got back on my feet, and caved in from stress. Finals are this week, and the stress of it broke my concentration and I ended up succumbing to my sugar cravings. I despise the unnatural warmth caused by the sugar rush along with the lethargic feeling after consuming 2000 Calories of junk throughout the day. Oh, how I abhor myself right now.

Let me not forget how my loneliness evolves. I've not  met up with my friends for about 2 months--not even say "hi" during the ten-minute passing periods or thirty-minute lunch break. This trend stays true for social media like facebook. In the last 3 months, I've only done 6 activities despite checking about once per day or two. The crux of my realization was that none of my friends bothered to check up on me. Not even a text message saying, "Hey, how has things been? It's been a while since I've heard from you." The only person who has made that effort has been my ex-boyfriend, and he's the one who broke up with me.

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Perhaps this is why I've taken up activities that require only the individual. I've been reading in my pass time, though when I'm done with this series I'll probably move onto a different activity in my cache. I need to practice my piano more, and I should expand my chainmail hauberk. I may even return to gaming, except that the last time I've done so my eyes hurt for the rest of the evening (although 8 hours spent staring at my computer or Nintendo DS screen might have been overkill). Perhaps I could continue writing my fantasy novel or drawing.

I'll mix things up and present myself a challenge: for every day I go without sweets, I'll add another hour  to free activity time. I can only cash in the hours Sunday of that week, resetting the count the following Monday. In this way, if I mess up, I still have a motive to continue. Let's see if I can make it to the end of finals this week without sugar.

Hope you've not given up on your new year's resolution yet! Skkai's out.